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Sep. 14th, 2006 @ 10:27 pm Fin.
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Thank you to everyone who sent good wishes and thoughts and prayers for me after my positive beta on Friday. Unfortunately, on Sunday afternoon my heart was broken again when I miscarried for the second time this year. I went to the RE's office on Monday anyways for another beta, and my numbers had gone up but not doubled. So based on the fact that I had the miscarriage on Sunday and my numbers were not high, my doctor does not believe it could be a situation where I was carrying two and miscarried one (that was my faint hope, but I don't really even believe it).

The past few days have been pretty unbearable, getting ready for my audit, having people congratulate me as they hear about my sister's pregnancy, hearing everyone celebrate my friend's announcement of her quads and just generally coping. I don't want to talk to people, I don't want to go out, I don't want to see anyone, and yet no one knows what we were doing so I have to act normal. I've come home in tears every time I go out. I tried all day today to find a walk-in clinic to do one more test. Each of the 5 that I went to had a waiting time of at least an hour - and that was just to get the req. to get the bloodwork! I'm angry and frustrated and I don't want to sit in a waiting room full of snotty-nosed, flu-filled kids, so again more tears.
Who does she think she is?
memorial
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From:heathog
Date:September 15th, 2006 02:37 am (UTC)
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I'm sending you giant cyber hugs, sweetie. I know this is a sad time for you, and I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you and your hubby to someday soon have all your dreams come true.
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From:miss_kat_1968
Date:September 15th, 2006 02:38 am (UTC)
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I'm so sorry, *big hugs* hon.
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From:dbaxdevilsfan
Date:September 15th, 2006 02:44 am (UTC)
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oh honey, I'm so sorry. *hugs*
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From:vanillabeani
Date:September 15th, 2006 03:10 am (UTC)
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i have no words that would make how you feel any better...

i can only imagine :(
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From:lilcrazy
Date:September 15th, 2006 03:22 am (UTC)
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I am so sorry to hear that..*hugs* :(
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From:ladybug777
Date:September 15th, 2006 04:07 am (UTC)
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I'm so sorry. Just so sorry.
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From:friscokitty
Date:September 15th, 2006 04:32 am (UTC)
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I am so so so sorry.

:*(

(((HUGS))) I wish there was something I could do.
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From:aussieteddie
Date:September 15th, 2006 06:45 am (UTC)
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My heart goes out to you. Having to keep that pain inside and act normal. You are a truly strong person and I admire that *hugs*
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From:bad_soup_day
Date:September 15th, 2006 07:59 am (UTC)
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I'm thinking of you.
RM
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From:piknik
Date:September 15th, 2006 12:05 pm (UTC)
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I wish there was something I could say or do, but there just isn't. I'm so sorry. Know that you are in my thoughts.
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From:blond_not_blind
Date:September 15th, 2006 12:49 pm (UTC)
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How awful for you. I'm so so sorry to hear this. No hope at all?
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From:devaux
Date:September 15th, 2006 01:05 pm (UTC)
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I'm so very, very sorry.
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From:beccak1961
Date:September 15th, 2006 02:18 pm (UTC)
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I'm so sorry.
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From:sionelldarkleaf
Date:September 15th, 2006 03:01 pm (UTC)
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I'm so sorry. :( *hugs*
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From:puffmattie
Date:September 15th, 2006 05:17 pm (UTC)
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I'm so very sorry! I was really hoping this one would work for you. I'll continue to keep you both in my thoughts.
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From:jkolovos
Date:September 15th, 2006 10:53 pm (UTC)
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((Gentle Hugs))

My heart is breaking right along with yours. I'm here if you need a cyber shoulder.
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From:redgemini
Date:September 19th, 2006 01:21 am (UTC)
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I am so sorry for your loss- I know the words are inadequate. Thinking of you.
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