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Mar. 7th, 2006 @ 08:41 pm Ultrasound update
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Hubby and I both went to the ultrasound today. It was very cool, they started out with the abdominal US but moved to the hoochie cam to get a better look. They took all kinds of pics, from all sorts of angles, and we got to see our little embryo, and to make it even better we got to see a heartbeat! Very, very cool. We had a couple of hours to wait between the ultrasound and the meeting with the RE, so we headed home and had some lunch. The meeting with the RE was hard to describe. He's happy (as are we - although you could say we're ecstatic) that this has finally worked, but the measurements of the embryo are off by about a week. We know exactly when we conceived, so it shouldn't vary that much. Rather than being the size of an embryo that is 7w5d, it is measuring 6w5d. I'd asked the tech about it at the time, but she didn't really comment on it. As well, the heartbeat is slower than it should be for the gestational age, but on target for a week behind.

Needless to say we're worried. We have a follow-up ultrasound in 10-14 days (it hasn't been booked yet), so while I thought I would be able to relax after this appointment, I'll now be worrying for the next two weeks. And I know all the worrying in the world isn't going to change anything, but every time I think about losing this pregnancy I feel like crying and throwing up at the same time.
Who does she think she is?
meh
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From:akteri
Date:March 8th, 2006 01:54 am (UTC)
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Hun, you sooooooo need to relax right now. The worry and stress is *NOT* going to help you out any during the pregnancy - especially one like yours.

I know that's much easier said than done, but you REALLY need to try your best to stay calm and just relax. You know you have all of us on lj if you need someone to talk to :D We're always here
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 02:30 pm (UTC)
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Oh I know I should - if I could just get the little brain to stop! Thanks very much.
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From:akteri
Date:March 8th, 2006 10:23 pm (UTC)
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pfffft - tis heartily meant... and true...

do what's best for you and your little one that's developing :D
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From:heathog
Date:March 8th, 2006 02:07 am (UTC)
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I wish I had some comforting words to say to you, but I don't. I've been through all kinds of hell with both of my pregnancies (and one worked out, the other didn't), so I know the anxiety you are going through. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. Seeing the heartbeat is a GREAT thing, so I have lots of hope for your little bean as well. The other positive thing to think about is that the "sizing" information is based on averages (you probably see a time frame like 6days +/- 2 days or so); that is a HUGE range because every pregnancy is a little different.

Oh, and I wouldn't worry about the tech not saying anything--I don't think s/he is allowed to (at least that is the case in the US, even if things are fine).

Hugs and Hope,

Kristin
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 02:39 pm (UTC)
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Thanks Kristin, we were so happy when we saw the heartbeat, it was just so disappointing a couple of hours later. My comment about the tech was more about even though I noticed it was small, she did a good job of deflecting concern until I could talk to the doctor. The techs associated with the fertility centre are so much more friendly than the general clinic ones, they will point out what the various bits are - it's kinda nice.
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From:patticakes73
Date:March 8th, 2006 04:50 am (UTC)
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I went through a ton of prenatal testing when I was pregnant with my youngest, mostly due to my health factors (I somehow managed to go into Congestive Heart Failure after the delivery of my daughter 7 years ago) so they were watching me and baby like a hawk. Anyway, I had SO many freaking ultrasounds and blood tests yadda yadda yadda and it seemed like every other week something was "off" and had me worried SICK. It makes it so hard to actually enjoy being pregnant...I know how you feel. *HUGS*
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 03:50 pm (UTC)
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Eep! I'm glad it all turned out well for you. In a way it's like information overload, everything is so clinical. Well, I'm still hoping I'll be able to calm down in a couple of weeks. ((hugs))
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From:patticakes73
Date:March 9th, 2006 05:54 pm (UTC)
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Exactly. Sometimes I think if we knew a little less, we'd be better off.
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From:ladybug777
Date:March 8th, 2006 01:21 pm (UTC)
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So happy that you got to see your emby and the heart beating. I was thinking about you last night, wondering how everything went.

So sorry that things didn't go exactly how you'd hoped. Hoping and praying that your next u/s puts all your fears and worries to rest. Sometimes, it just seems like we can't buy a break.
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 05:38 pm (UTC)
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Thanks, I sure hope it does too. I just want one thing to be easy! It's not like I'm asking for a lot.*g*
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From:devaux
Date:March 8th, 2006 01:41 pm (UTC)
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*hugs*

I'm sending my prayers and hopes and all the positive vibes I can muster up to you and your hubby.
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 05:38 pm (UTC)
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Thanks very much, we need them.
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From:friscokitty
Date:March 8th, 2006 02:55 pm (UTC)
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Oh jeez...did the doctor say ANYTHING about what this might mean or how relevant/not relevant this is at this stage of the game??? (I know you said the tech said nothing...) (((HUGS))) I'll be hoping...
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 06:58 pm (UTC)
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Not really, he is concerned, and he knows that we are too, and that I've done tonnes of research and talked to all sorts of people with fertility issues. So although he didn't say it, I know that there is an increased risk of miscarriage/losing the baby.

It was basically an 'if it's meant to be' sort of thing.
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From:islandgirlsj
Date:March 8th, 2006 03:28 pm (UTC)
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Oh sweetie!
I know how stressful it can be to wait, and not have any real answers, and how worried you must be, but you also have to remember how good it is for you to remain calm and positive. That little miracle in there knows what you are feeling, stress and all.
I know... easy to say, hard to get that head from thinking a million things.
It is good though that you heard the heartbeat... and that it is healthy for the age the baby measured. Take each day as a gift Hun, and soon enough, you'll be looking at that baby in his/her eyes!
::hugs::
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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
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I'm really trying but it's always there at the back of my mind. I had horrible dreams last night, I just can't seem to turn my brain off!
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From:running5k2day
Date:March 8th, 2006 06:55 pm (UTC)
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Hogwash! Plain Hogwash! Don't go getting yourself all stressed out. Did you hear the heart beat of that little miracle in you? Yes. Did you see that little miracle inside of you...growing. Yes. The rest is just blady-blady-blah. Remember the excitement and joy that you felt seeing and hearing that little miracle. Encourage that baby to grow and hang in there. Don't let a single negative thought enter that body and mind!!! You've come so far to let some minor little information rain on your parade. Just keep thinking happy thoughts~Positive thoughts. Hey-not all babies grow the same. Just keep eating yummy foods and sing-away. =-)

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From:neeroc
Date:March 8th, 2006 10:19 pm (UTC)
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You are so great, you make me smile. Thanks for the words of encouragement, I really am trying!
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