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Sep. 7th, 2006 @ 11:41 pm Pointless
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I haven't been around much the past couple of days, as I'm still a mess, obsessing about the test tomorrow. I am in such a weird place. I so badly want this to be the time it works, but I am confident it didn't happen. I still want to go and hear about a positive result tomorrow afternoon, but I'm anticipating the sympathetic tone when the nurse calls. When I do sleep, I dream about getting answers. Most of the time it is positive, and last night it was my RE who actually gave me the news. And that makes it harder when I wake up (did I mention my dreams have been really vivid lately?) and have to sort out that it was just a dream. Hubby will be going with me for the blood draw, and I'm really grateful for that. I feel like it's pointless but still try to have hope.

I decided to spend this week working from home. I figured I'd be less likely to over extend myself, and lets face it, I wouldn't have to face anyone, or answer any questions. It worked against me to a certain extent. For almost 24 hours, from Tuesday afternoon on, my VPN connection would not work. Stress much? I did manage to do a bunch of knitting, finished up many projects that I'd had on the needles for a looong time. As soon as my batteries are charged I'll post some pics. But now I'm playing catch-up on all the work that needs to be done for the security audit in two weeks.

I started writing this to thank everyone for their good thoughts after my last post. I'm sure I'm sounding like a broken record, but it's only one more day now.

Who does she think she is?
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From:bad_soup_day
Date:September 8th, 2006 07:05 am (UTC)
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You are in my thoughts.
RM
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From:piknik
Date:September 8th, 2006 11:48 am (UTC)
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I wish you all the good thoughts in the world. I wish I could make it happen, both for you and for myself. I think just about every woman I see is pregnant these days. I hope it happens for you, I hope you've got the PLUS!!!!
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From:blond_not_blind
Date:September 8th, 2006 01:15 pm (UTC)
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OH I so hope you are getting good news today. (I am reading this on Friday). Keep us posted and try to have good thoughts.
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From:jkolovos
Date:September 8th, 2006 01:35 pm (UTC)
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Thinking of you!

I will say, when I was pregnant in November, I had very vivid dreams that ended up being prophetic (sp?). I was also certain the cycle didn't work.

Try to relax a bit, I know it's hard.
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From:jiliana
Date:September 8th, 2006 03:50 pm (UTC)
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I am thinking so many good thoughts for you today honey. God I SO hope this is your time. *crosses fingers and prays*
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From:stella0017
Date:September 8th, 2006 04:01 pm (UTC)
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Sending all of my good thoughts to you! XO
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